About Him
I'm an ambivert through and through.
Some people know me as an extremely loud, easy, outgoing man who can relate with anyone discuss any topic, anywhere, while others know me as a stiff ,serious,bookworm who never leaves the house.
I love working in groups and organizing group works, but sometimes I prefer doing things on my own.
I love being outdoor and socializing, I'm not shy at all but I get tired of people and just want to stay in my room watching a movie or reading a book.
Some people think I'm a loner who is always quiet while others think I'm a group person always in a clique.
Getting attention and having people listening to me is fun but I get uncomfortable when it gets too much or strangers get in the audience.
I love staying in my room all day, but I get bored and want to go out party with friends ,stay out all night and never step in my room again.
I love small talk and engaging people in conversations but it gets boring and I switch off and become a totally different person.
I love being alone but I get bored and need people, yet too much time around people leaves me drained and exhausted.
I always give people the benefit of doubt and trust them but then I get skeptical in the smallest things. If you give me the slightest reason to mistrust you, I stop trusting you completely.
Its fun being in between the spectrum of introvert and extrovert but then again , it's confusing even for me.
Sometimes people who have only seen my extrovert side describe me and I get surprised wondering who that girl is ,at the same time when someone calls me stiff and a prude I get offended because I know I'm fun
About His Ideal Match
My ideal partner would be someone who is also my best and closest friend. Someone who I feel comfortable around and can be myself.
Other things that would be important to me is they'd have to like animals, allow me my space but enjoy affectionate moments too, preferably have some insight on mental illness, and probably be an introvert like myself (or at least be happy going to social events without me, I hate crowds >_<)
I admit I prefer a romantic-based relationship over a sexual one. So they'd probably have to be okay with that too.
How would they affect my depression/anxiety? Hm, well when things are bad, I'd like someone to just sit quietly with me and maybe talk about random stuff, not necessarily bad stuff, but good stuff too.
I'd hope they would be okay with me not going everywhere with them, and not try to talk me in to doing something that is making me uncomfortable. Allow me to say no, without getting aggressive about it.
Maybe give a little reassurance too, I'm very unconfident and paranoid that people secretly hate me, so little things to remind me I'm loved would be really sweet. Not gifts (unless they wanted to,) just taking care of me when I'm sick, or telling me when they appreciate something. That sort of thing.
But I don't think they could fix my mental illness, in fact no one can but me (with work and time). But I'd be happy if they accepted me the way I am, and helped me find creative ways to overcome obstacles when they happen. To be patient with me, caring, insightful and a good listener. To support me in getting better, but to be also accepting that I may never get better.
I'd hope we could work things out together and compromise when we can. That we can find a comfortable area where we can both cope and feel cared for.
